Just another thought

Its been a long time, i have grown up, the memories of the old times just keeps fading as, i always thought and believed that a moment should be lived in a way that it just becomes an integral part of your life. Is this my inability to do that, my obsession with my future or is it just plain blankness.

Holding back for a moment and just turning back i see my life my successes my failure my extent of growth and overall i just cant complain about anything, but still there is a hollowness if i think, i m still looking for the real meaning of life, or is it just a game to be played, is it something to be sacrificed for something u want to achieve, is it something which has to be lived and enjoyed to the max, is it about yourself or about people who love u, is it just nothing more than facing everyday issues and be satisfied or is it about the dissatisfaction which becomes the seed to growth. The questions are amazingly complicated, even the logic of few can be questioned but the premises can't be, discovery of life and finding the meaning of it is something which is to be striven by every individual, even who are far less complicated.